getting out of bed

i've found it hard to get out of bed most mornings lately.
it's not that i am sleeping (sleepy yes but able to sleep, no)
we have been trying hard to figure it out--the not sleeping thing.
and my husband has been doing a great job of ignoring the alarm as well.

i get so upset at night about the strangest things:
overwhelmed by a sad story i read in the newspaper.
overworked over a homework problem i may or may not have done wrong
worried about how i am going to get a part of my program done, three years from now.
and it's a heart racing, excessive sweating, the only thing I can do is cry type of upset.

so i am just as much if not more exhausted by the time i wake up in the morning to get to that 7:30 birth control alarm as i was when i tried so hard to go to bed the night before.
and no amount of keeping our apartment at 68 degrees, deep breathing, melatonin, tea, warm milk, lavender epsom salt baths, five mile runs, and calming music seems to help.

and the lack of sleep is really starting to get to me.